Small film in Berlin [Beings]

In November I want to go to ‪#‎Berlin‬ to make a film.
A no-budget film, a friend of mine actor invited me to do the film there with the belief that we will find people more open to another frame of mind acting film and art.

We are looking for help with organizing the rehearsals, exercises and filming.

It is a story about a girl that struggles to become an angel so that she will cope with the world she is lost into. The love that she lost in others.
A film about sacrificing oneself for the beauty of nothing.
[a ‪poetic‬ ‪‎porn‬ ‪‎film‬]
 including, performance, butoh, spirituality, genitalia, raw emotions, truth, intimacy

 a film titled

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For a Porn Film

I am looking for a few people with whom to make an underground poetic porn film.
A film about becoming many. About sharing ourselves through our bodies into pure body-mind-soul-nothingness. About the hardships of transgressing these borders. The journey to nothingness is such a difficult one. Is a journey of amputation.

I am very interested in sexuality and the sexual experiences between people because they are the most intimate and powerful and transgressive of all. And they are less social than wholesome.

I am ready to pay some of the actors, it will be my first payed project  although I would love to make it no-budget because it would be in the true spirit of the project.
I will rent a place for 1 month where we can rehearse, play, discover and film.
We all need poetry, we all need porn.

The project will be filmed in Romania in a, not yet chosen, small city. I am gravitating towards an almost forgotten town, an old spa town with natural mineral waters in the mountains, now in ruins - Borsec. It is a very mysterious and magical place surrounded by weird natural formations that I would love to use as backdrops.

The symbol of woman

Woman is the symbol of out most inner unfortified self. That is why we seldom feel the need to abuse and control Her. It is what we feel and what we want to do with our inner wild and free side. Our Soul. Our defenseless Idiot. Our ecstatic core.
Woman is our universal symbol for our deep ecstatic core. We use and abuse Her as we would our deepest unreachable core.
That is why when a woman intuitively understands her significance she becomes so so so amazing Powerful.


Magical beings
universes inside physics laws unbending impossible to change.
Why can't we change physical laws?
Why mind is different than physics and allows and desires bendable physics.
Why are we not inside the physical system. And in what system are we,
one that contains physics and is not contained in it.
Seeking freedom inside brackets.

The necessity of outcasts

The necessity of outcasts It is a fight. Everything is a fight. Is training your weapons is standing ground, is never giving an inch away. But I do not like to fight. Doing it without the extermination technique. Maybe nature we learned is an adversary. That is what we've learned for 2 million years. When we stand ground, when we fight for our "own" we actually fight for our own species. Our own ancient instincts. And instincts are only existential. There is no cultural instinct. There is no beauty instinct. There is only a species one, and weirdly a God-like one. And I think the God-like instinct is something to do with atomic and quantum physics. And if it is so, our creativity, our beauty, our subtleness that we can't transmit through our genes, is so due to the * our consciousness does. Because all animals have this God-like quantum physics inside but they can't constientises it. And thus can't change it, can't influence it. The self-awareness, that what creates in time consciousness, is usually due to fear and the inability to automatically integrate in the common system of values. The world is not enough only for those that don't have the get in pass by nature. Those that in a nature way of living would be outcasts. So only the outcasts have the involuntary system and dynamics that can evolve. Evolution is a factor of outcasting. Consensus and consensual societies and species are doomed to extinction. As any ideas, political systems, values. Shared from Google Keep

Urge to Fuck

I don't feel the urge to fuck anymore. Is too small and limiting is too one sided and one rile only. The pleasure now is not anymore because it doesn't have in it the fear the unachievable the risk and the wonder that you do something impossible. Something unreachable. The amazement of doing the undoable. So now the issue is to find a way to make this contact between man and woman an experience that is fulfilling so deep so existential as that initial fear/pleasure that you stepped into at the beginning. I think is the same with men and women and also with all fear/pleasure experiences.
Some of art deals with this. Some deal with beauty, as a tool to teach learn and continue a pattern of being that is sustainable able law of nature abiding (if true) .


I want to disarm people.
Disarm them from their inner weapons. Disarm them and give them the possibility to feel and perceive life in freedom.
We build weapons inside. To protect ourselves from the others. To contraatac and never again let the others hurt us.
Weapons are build by those that don't get the chance to understand their fears. That identify with them. That build themselves around them. That buried them deep and start believing that those bundle of inner fears make their own self, the totality of all they most inner and most close 'are' .
I make films that disarm. Both actors and spectator.
Both myself and all the crew. We have to fight to through our weapons away.
That is my mission.
That is what I do unconsciously for as long as I can remember.

MENO - butoh performance

This is a video that I made in 2012 with the help of 6 dancers - the Beings - with whom I tried to create a primordial world. A pre-human world where Beings made out of flesh and chaos begin to see, hear, touch, feel their shape, their breathe, their heart beat.
Beings that grow out of plants, beings that grow out of ruins and forgotten knowledge. That is why we filmed in an abandoned and burned old factory.
It was amazing to find nature inside a building, nature that grows in its own language, in its mistery as the Beings do too.


In hidden places we do hidden things