MENO - butoh performance

This is a video that I made in 2012 with the help of 6 dancers - the Beings - with whom I tried to create a primordial world. A pre-human world where Beings made out of flesh and chaos begin to see, hear, touch, feel their shape, their breathe, their heart beat.
Beings that grow out of plants, beings that grow out of ruins and forgotten knowledge. That is why we filmed in an abandoned and burned old factory.
It was amazing to find nature inside a building, nature that grows in its own language, in its mistery as the Beings do too.


In hidden places we do hidden things

Fucked in the Ass

Today I feel the need to be Fucked in the Ass
Fucked by someone that doesn't know my language, someone that I do not understand and feel enormous distance to.
I feel trapped in GUILT
Guilt for what I am
and I need a big Cock to drill me Open
Open to the Raw, Basic Reality
I am too lost in the numbness of pain.


We have to train and exercise continuously our innocence.


We live in a permanent state of Threat
All our daily actions feel like Transgressions
Walking on the street, shopping, working, talking at the phone, meeting people, paying bills, going out, dreaming at night, waking up in the morning.
If there would be nothing to fear about, our souls would fill the void with the compressed and hidden light of our beings.
A weird strange different system of life.


We search for something else only because we can't cope with normal things.
If we could, we would be satisfied with what everybody wants, has and dreams.
We do not fight to fit in, to be apart, but to brake free, to be on our own into infinity.
I believe we are special beings that took life form for a special reason. Still unknown.


Self-Kill = Getting Out of Norm


I call God, life.
As in meaning of Life.
As in the beauty if life and its kindness with me.
As in my respect for the amazement of life.

RedReturn - manifesto

This World, where genital life is hidden and closed between two people, is made for bad people. Is a world defending itself from the illusions and fears of bad and abusive behavior.

I claim a world of good people, a world where bad does not exist, where death does not exist where purity can transpass all out inner layers and corners and borders.
I claim an Inoffensive world.
We are all children, pure, alive, and joyous.
Is better to give up your life, than letting yourself harm another.  
Sinking our purity, gets us further and further away from reality.
Reality is a White Angle is a Red Return.

This World, we can only have in Art. Only Art can keep it safe and pure. Only protected from our weaknesses and frustrations.